Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

Thou only art immortal, the creator and maker of mankind; and we are mortal, formed of the earth, and unto earth shall we return. For so thou didst ordain when thou createdst me, saying, “Dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.” All we go down to the dust; yet even at the grave [...]

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The Morning After the Night Before

Yesterday, when talking to the bloke from the Crisis Team, I came up with quite a good analogy for how I felt… It’s like the morning after the night before… I wake up, and suddenly I’m seeing the Crisis Team, my life is even more of a mess than before, and it’s like… y’know… what [...]

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I’ve Been Thinking…

I know night-time thoughts are not the most reliable, but I still feel the same in the cold white light of morning. I’m not ill, I don’t have any problems other than ones I’ve made myself. I’ve been deluding myself that I can blame them on anything other than my own unwillingness to face up [...]

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What is Depression, Anyway?

So… I’ve not done anything particularly crazy since July; I’ve not felt particularly crazy since sometime in August. Things are fairly obviously improved (thanks to the Mirtazzy), and I can finally be trusted to use sharp implements sensibly – rather than running them lightly down my arm while trying to size up where and how [...]

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When Thou Walkest Through the Fire, Thou Shalt Not Be Burned

And only You, the Son of man Can take a leper and let him stand So lift your hands, they can be held By someone greater, the great I Am Healing Rain by Michael W. Smith I don’t blog about my faith much – partly because I don’t want to sidetrack the blog, partly because [...]

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The Tears Won’t Come

Slumped in the middle of a half-cleaned room, Hoover still in hand. But the tears won’t come. The storm of my emotions gathers round, seaching out a nook, a cranny, a weakness. But the tears won’t come. I can feel the blood coursing through my veins, keeping me alive, so close to my skin. But [...]

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Blah

The gallows in my garden, people say, Is new and neat and adequately tall; I tie the noose on in a knowing way As one that knots his necktie for a ball; But just as all the neighbours on the wall Are drawing a long breath to shout “Hurray!” The strangest whim has seized me. [...]

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Death and (physical) Illness

A few weeks ago I went over with my parents to see one of my grandparents, whom had been taken into hospital for various old-age complaints along the line of “not looking after herself”. When I saw her, I recognised the expression on her face right away, having seen it in the mirror so many [...]

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Depression is REALLY Bad for Your (Environmental) Health

(Please, don’t read this post if you’re feeling queasy or are squeemish) Well, yesterday I discovered that my housemates, the mice had been mostly hanging out in one particular corner of the room… so I investigated. What I found were hideous amounts of droppings… and two dirty plates that had been rotting there since I [...]

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Light Of The World…

Light of the world, Enter into the depths of our lives. Come into the dark and hidden places. Walk in the storehouse of our memories. Hear the hidden secrets of the past. Plumb the very depth of our being. Be present through the silent hours. And bring us safely to your glorious light. Credit: Power [...]

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