Chronically in Crisis: When shouting and shouting just isn’t enough

So, after seeing my second psychiatrist in two days (with, luckily, the same conclusion: don’t need hospital, do need crisis team), Crisis finally came round and assessed me today. Unsurprisingly, they were reluctant to take me on, and said that they’d be doing me a disservice by doing so (they also complained about “budgetary constraints”). [...]

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Communication and Care

What to do when the PCMHT don’t want you because you’re too severe but not severe enough for the CMHT? Blue Skies and Green Grass I think I may have found this out, at long last. Dropping down to crisis point seems to have mobilised referrals and people in a way that would never have [...]

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The Morning After the Night Before

Yesterday, when talking to the bloke from the Crisis Team, I came up with quite a good analogy for how I felt… It’s like the morning after the night before… I wake up, and suddenly I’m seeing the Crisis Team, my life is even more of a mess than before, and it’s like… y’know… what [...]

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Next Step on the Meddy-Go-Round(?)

She was late, but came in the end, and dragged me up to the hospital to sit in an awful waiting room with green chairs and fake plants. The trick cyclist asked me a few questions and sung the praises of duloxetine, so I told him what he wanted to hear and agreed to the [...]

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The Shadow Lover

Shadow-Lover, never seen by day, Only deep in dreams do you appear. Wisdom tells me I should turn away, Love of mist and shadows, all unclear – Nothing can I hold of you but thought Shadow-Lover mist and twilight wrought. Shadow-Lover, comfort me in pain. Love, although I never see your face, All who’d have [...]

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Silly Silly Chouette…

Just got out of hospital, Crisis Team should be coming round tomorrow. I’m fine, but I’ve had a helluva weekend. Will explain more later… am currently still wearing the same clothes I was admitted in, and haven’t had a chance to take a shower since then. So I’m not only a silly Chou, I’m also [...]

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Chouette is Annoyed and VERY Unhappy

…and mostly incapable of writing a coherent post to explain why. It will, I think, suffice to explain that the Crisis Team have just been round and explained that they’re discharging me back to my GP. They did say to ask my GP to refer me back to them if I feel low again… and [...]

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The Weather Is Moping Too..

My second dose of Mitazzy last night had me crawling up the walls with agitation about an hour after I took it – the OT lady from the Crisis Team seemed unconcerned, so I’m still going to have to take a dose tonight. Really not looking forward to it, I’m somewhat bothered about the possibility [...]

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Blah

The gallows in my garden, people say, Is new and neat and adequately tall; I tie the noose on in a knowing way As one that knots his necktie for a ball; But just as all the neighbours on the wall Are drawing a long breath to shout “Hurray!” The strangest whim has seized me. [...]

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Just Had A Visit From A Charming Young Man

…unfortunately, he was a nurse from the Crisis Team. Ah well! Sorry for the diary-ness of my latest entries – I think I want to get this sorted in my head, and have something I can look back over that will be dated, etc. I feel my mood has picked up a bit today, and [...]

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